fool me april slash a convo with someone

in behalf of april fool's day, what did i do? no nothing happened. i've been only fooled once because she's the only one who i had talked to yesterday. she texted me (and i pity myself because i know it's a group message) that she was pregnant. so gullible i was, i fell for that easily. nothing so special. i hate it because nothing's going on in my life something new. really, nothing interesting or something i have to be excited about when i wake up every morning. will someone stab me right through my heart already?

all i do is to feign my identity in golivewire. talk to people with the same bisexual gender as i am. ohhh by the way, i'll be posting a convo with a bi person who happens to be smitten with his best friend. but his friend as far as our assumption goes, is bi too based on everything he told me. he's from wisconsin, united states. i replied on his post to which he marked as anonymous. to my surprise, he sent me a private message and it has been going a long way. i'm still waiting for his response and hopefully this could be our last. i am really trying to be of help to him but i'm running out of words especially that i haven't been in such a dilemma. honestly, i envy him for having that experience. i mean, at least he has someone.

i'll post our parley tomorrow when i receive his last message. however, i receive it or not, it would still be posted here.

my girlfriend left me no choice

Remember about the forum I was talking about on my previous post? Golivewire? So I had this topic opened and made a question that I know many would get into. It got so many good and upholding responses which made me reprehensible because the topic I made wasn't true. I was just going in for something to talk about. Well, I deeply show my gratitude to those people who gave their advice. Who knows, I might got myself into this kind of situation in the future or for people who have been having the same problem. Here are very good comments about the topic below.

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tomatosandwich: My girlfriend left me no choice. She put me in a difficult situation where I had to choose between her and the other guy. So we broke up since I loved the guy more than her. She never knew I was bi until the incident. Tomorrow I'm gonna talk to her and apologize to whatever I've done wrong. I keep thinking of her. We've been together for two years. I know its my fault. So shoot me now.

sequelmc: Damn dude, you left her for a dude.

Napster the Hacker: you are a bad bf, what makes u think it wont happen again with the guy?
which one do you prefer? I got 9mm beretta, sword off shotgun and a desert eagle.

tomatosandwich: @sequel: I know right. I have thought of it several times. I was really waiting for a chance to tell her but she got me cornered.

PBScott: It's called monogamy, and it is very common. You already made your choice, so get over it. Trust me she is hurting far more than you. You can apologize all you want, but she will still be in an unhappy situation until she moves on.

tomatosandwich: @PBScott: Im fucked as hell. My conscience's killing me. I just don't know what do right now.

ScoobieDoobie: HAHAHAHAH THIS is why I don't date bi dudes.
I would be damned if a guy left me for some dick in the ass.
She probably will never talk to you again. I mean, what girl would? you left her for a guy... she must be ruined. Like now, the next guy won't want her because he'll think she is soo awful, she turns guys gay.... ohh man, buddy. you shouldn't have been fooling around behind her back.

Lord of the blings: So who do you love more?
Maybe you still love the guy more, but you're just feeling some post breakup guilt.
Or maybe you realized that the grass is not greener on the other side and this guy was just a passing fancy.

ScoobieDoobie: Either way... He's fuuucked.

tomatosandwich: Thank you guys for your responses. So I'm trying to reach her but she never accepts any of my calls or texts. I haven't also seen her in her usual spots. I think I need to give her some time to everything that happened. F*ck! I'm guilt-ridden for being such a pussy that I should have told her earlier. But of course I don't regret what I did since it was all because of him.

the raven: Listen. She is hurt for several reasons.

First of all, you cheated on her. That will hurt anyone. I think you understand that.

Second, though, and more importantly, you kept something about yourself from her. Something very serious about who you are. You were together for a while, and probably, to her, it felt like you should be able to tell her anything. The fact that you didn't bother to do that, to not even talk to her about your feelings, probably upset her.
In a way, that was more a breach of trust than the cheating. You couldn't even confide in her something that serious and close to you, so was she ever really that important? That is how she'll feel. That's how she'll view it.

TragicPerfection: You know what you did was wrong, so I'm not going to nag you about it. However, I'm going to try to offer up some decent advice....
On top of being heart broken, her self esteem is probably very hurt. She probably feels betrayed as well as feeling as if something is wrong with her.

I think, you should send/give her one heart felt apology and during that apology, you need to let her know that it was nothing about her, nothing she did wrong; that your prefrence just happens to be of the male persuasion. Let her know how deeply sorry you are, don't tell her you love her, tell her you care about her, but do NOT say you love her. Because, you don't in the sense she would take it in. Let her know if she ever needs anything, you will always be there for her as a friend.

Maybe, to help her out, you both can say that you just wanted to break it off because you grew apart or just didn't have feelings for each other anymore, so she doesn't have to deal with the speculation of "Oh, he left her for another dude, what's wrong with her?"
Heck, even if she wants to tell everyone she broke up with you, let her, it's not that big of a deal, especially if you're happy.

After you two decide what to do and after you apologize and say everything you need to say, don't contact her again, unless she contacts you. You can even tell her that if you want.

Also, it's natural to think of her, you were with her for two years. But, your feelings belong to someone else now, don't they? You're always going to think of her, she was apart of your life for two years.

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Okay, this is how far it went through. I really love these people. They know how to put themselves in your shoes and offer some advice. I laud the person who last posted. All I can say is that she's a good person. I was touched by her reply.

FYI, most them are straight female. How did I know that? It's indicated below their postst what sexual preferences they have along with the country they're in. I put mine, male bisexual.